Tuesday 16 August 2016

Memories

Once again I have been made to remember the happy times that I have had of my childhood< But its not that way with all my siblings. Yesterday tried to speak to my sister who is three years older than I, and she starts with I am not in a good place today!!!!
Am in hell....She says that for 27 years after Mum died she has had no piece of mind!! You see when my lovely Mum passed away she was there at the hospital... Few days before I went to visit Mum at the hospital before we went to the homeland for our annual  holiday, we did not expect Mum to die so soon...

So we say our goodbyes and we left.... then I don't know what happened I ran back and give her a big hug I suppose I had a premonition that I wasn't to see her again... My heart weighs heavy to..... for that great loss that we all felt at the time, and my memories are of the happy times and of the wonderful Mother that she was to us all....

So why does she feel so bereft, she has this idea in her head that Mum did not like her and I can't for the life of me, understand where that is coming from, Mum had a hard life she had a large household to look after and at times she used to get angry with us when we did not help but I don't think that is reason to think that she did not like any of us!!!! 

So I suppose that I to am in hell too, but only because my sister has this thoughts My Mum loved us all and I never felt growing up, that it was anything other than love for her children.... My heart goes to my sister but her memories are so distorted from mine! we grew up side by side and at times I think which house has she grown up? We grew up in a small quinta surrounded by trees and sugar cane, that was our playground too, we climbed trees  like any other child.......